Mary's Baby Journal

I'm feeling ill this morning.  I do not know what to do for it. I've made a shake and have drunk almost all of it.  I took my vitamins.  Took pain meds.  I do not know what to do about it!  I'm feeling poorly enough that I could go back to my bed.  My dog Max isn't well either. He's been puking a bit. I also have a pain on m left knee and i cannot say why that's happening.  I think it will all blow over soon. It snowed this morning so I'm not inclined to go out and do errands. I wish to find a good way to counter these ills that only seem to come in the mornings.

I'm pregnant but my due date isn't for another several months.

To those who are wondering,  I'm not pregnant. I'm merely having a tumour.  I will have to place it in God's hands.  I think my Life is finally getting over.  I will be ceasing posting here.

I"m not happy today.  I'm not really pregnant.  I took another pregnancy test and it came back 'not pregnant' and I was a bit sad.  Not too sad.  I am wondering whether I ought to do some more exercise, or see a doctor to put me on a diet, but my SO says no to either one.  So if he prefers me to be this 'plump' then he'll have to suffer the consequences, right, everyone?

I've been asked if I'm eating enough.  I am able to eat breakfast, some lunch, then dinner.  A snack is usually something but it's not a lot. Breakfast:  bacon and eggs coffee, sometimes ina great while I have oatmeal, steel cut oats, which I made this morning but it took a long time.  I want the oats to look done and they are still somehow in their pre-cooked state so I have to keep adding water to it.  Then I also had eggs on a stretcher. Now I'm having some soup - new england clam chowder - and coffee.  I'm having pain that's prickly on my left under fore arm. Lunch is the clam chowder. Dinner might be something like steak and some seasoned rice.  The recipe for the seasoned rice is in my recipe blogger that I have with Colin Firth. My bathroom is not working, loo wise.  I can wash my hair if I want to there.  I do not have a working sink.  Dad said there's something wrong with the toilet.  We have no money to repair it o...

I'm here making breakfast.  The steel cut oats refuse to be cooked.  They've got the devil in them, I suppose.  However, I'm not in a hurry.  No church service to attend, nor getting anyone up to go anywhere.  The weather is alternately windy and calm.  There was a fear that the roof might be taken off the house but it's intact.  I think some slats on the roof could be missing, but who's going to check it?  If the roof were not intact, we'd likely have to carry in the buckets to catch any drips from the roof.  That would be perfection for a house that's rather sad and getting worse in the passing days. I'm listening to music and well, the dogs who were tearing round the house are now resting somewhere in their favorite snooks. There are things to do: Knitting a purse or blanket (the finished product depends on my own whims and the availability of money to buy a lining to make the purse finished) Reading a book that I've chosen fo...

I'm posting on my other blog a recipe.  It's not too bad here.  Dad has the telly on.  I'm going to be behind in paying the TV subscription.  I am glad to have got some business things done.  I might have to find more FB friends to buy some of the Lularoe clothes I have ordered.  I pray that this will be good. I like the clothes there.  Some people in Reddit are unhappy about the clothes.  I tried to reply being polite and even humour them.  I think some are forcing themselves to hate this bec they are just that way. Sick and somehow rather ornery as they call them in these parts.  Ornery is a habit or some trait these Midwesterners have.  They like being ornery because they can be ornery.  They have their arms akimbo and start yollering about what ever.  I met a woman like that, she'd get into a tirade over some offence she has received, a student who's not attending, or some inventory she'd made that got consumed and nob...

A mellow afternoon.  Listening to music.  It's good because I've been rather excited about some business things. I pray this new adventure will be good.  I've also seen a lovely little puppy on Facebook.  I don't know what I can do to have him join the brood. Posted a few recipes.  Mainly side dishes and appetizers or snacks:  raita and roasted chickpeas.  I had the latter one time or twice during a time when I was eating healthy with a healthy-tending FB group.  I had so much fun eating the chickpeas and then I never got around to doing it again.  I must find those recipes and see what I can do.  Once I made a whole chicken roast and it was good.  Another recipe or two, they were good too. Some shakes and some other snacks. I don't know what became of the lady who led the group.  I think she might still be around. Have seen the clinic I'm going to be getting some therapy from (mental health) and the clientele wasn't all ...

Got up early around 2-ish.  Did a few things in the kitchen.  Went back to sleep.  Now I'm up (since around 6 am).  I've got a therapist appoitment (mental health) to get back to Lafayette medical people instead of going to Indy every three or four weeks.  They in Indy are good but the traffic to go there and back is awful. I'm fearing for our safety on the road to Indy.  I have a puppy to take care of and I cannot bear to leave him in the house with the other pets.  I'll be coming by again later today. Had scones for breakfast and those bacon and egg things and coffee.  Taking Reliv for my vitamins.  Needing to see if I can get a new pair of glasses as these i've got are rather sad now - the dogs have gotten to it and have been chewing on the rims.  Eek.  But I'm going to be positive in thinking things will look better someday. I'm signing up with Lularoe today.  I hope they will be ok with me still.  My pension che...

My day was decent and I was here for the wifi man to set up our wifi.  I had some problems with my dogs but they are fine now.  I'm feeling better about the way this day is going,  I signed up with an independent type job that can possibly get some income this way. I've no real intention of going for errands.  I'm broke. I do have a few projects to work on - knitting and some crochet work.  I have given a few thoughts to writing but this has only generated a bad reaction and so I'm not getting into the writing for a while. I was watching Fox and Friends when this bad reaction happened and I suspect that TGT person on Fox and Friends is the culprit. My scone has been good and I might say my dog Max is so eager to have some!  I don't understand why but i guess he's into scones! Little puppy is alright but he was so eager to see the wifi man.  I feel rather sad for the wifi man. I'm eager to do some new stuff for this independent thing I'm s...

The day is wet outside.  I hear the drip drip drip of the rain against the pavement outside our window.  the TV is on and they are still talking about (1) Mr Trump and the impeachment - a never ending saga, and (2) whatever is hot now - mostly the Iran impasse which Mr Trump seems to have stumbled backwards into. I'm somewhat detached from everything.  I have been somewhat grouchy today but I have expended some energies in making scones.  I am not sure the scones are to my taste but it is a better tasting scone than the one I made some days ago - it was rather salty and I wasn't sure whether there was a problem with the proportion.  I decided that the butter was salted, which I would not have picked if I were shopping on my own for the ingredients.  I also used almond milk which isn't quite the cream the recipe calls for.  However, I skipped the salt and went on with all the other stuff.  The dogs seemed to be anticipating this and I remember th...

I've started up again on a Baby Registry (in my Amazon wish list).  I looked at cribs and I must say they aren't very pretty there.  I settled for (and Colin picked it out) for a crib that we can keep with us in our master bedroom. I did a few knitting projects, stopped by the post office, got a soda and then later in the day I talked to a credit lawyer who said he will help 'cure' my credit problems.  I believe he can.  He did a run through of my debts and the 'negative' comments in my credit whatsit and he said they weren't to worry about.  He said he'll work on it - or his team, that is.  I pray he will be left alone. My day has been good so far as it's only after seven a.m.  I made breakfast - curry rice and eggs over bacon. I went on Zillow's app to find some houses in Indianapolis.  A few of them looked nice.  I got a call from their realtors and it seemed my chances of getting a mortgage weren't too good given my credit deficit....

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I've been blessed with a time to have a quiet life with the advent of my little baby.  In this time I took up an old but good habit - hobby, really - of crocheting and knitting.  I want to show you a website that gives me some good ideas to do for baby blankets and other things: https://www.allfreecrochet.com/Crochet-Afghan-Patterns/Easy-Modern-Rose-Afghan

I saw the doctor some weeks ago.  I gave her my usual rundown of things that I was going through that week.  She was a good listener.  Then the other day I received a letter from FSSA.  In that letter, they told me that my physician gave me the status of: Medically Frail.  I guess that's their code to say "I'm pregnant"!

A so so morning.  Difficult bec my SO isn't here . He's in the Gulf and running exercises to make sure there is security in the Middle East.  So dangerous.  I'm praying he'll be safe.  It will be a while before he gets home. The baby seems good.  She was kicking when I woke up yesterday morning.  And I get a reminder she's in my belly every so often. I feel lousy but I'm doing my best to do what I need to do to feel better.  I took Tylenol. Then some baby vitamins. I found a nice Connemara rosary with the Connemara marble.  It is very comforting,  I think I'll say a few prayers for my husband, Colin.

My day has been somewhat good.  I made breakfast, and gave the pets their meals.  I went out to buy more yarn.  I'm making a hat. My pregnancy seems to be more apparent.  I need a bigger maternity pair of pants.  I don't remember what size I bought, I might have bought a size for a 12 or 14, so if I have to I'll have to find someplace to get a larger size.  These pants are elastic, and they do fit well enough.  I also have a few loose (what they call 'tall and curvy') leggings so I will have to find those.  I'm not sure what to do later, I could try to see about learning how to use my sewing machine.  I don't know whether I could get the last shipment for accessories soon. I wanted to find this lady who did these cool t-shirts - I might be able to get some simple sewing tasks to learn.  I learned to sew twice, the last set of classes weren't too bad.  The fabric store in my city closed down early in our lives here in town. I h...

I skipped a few days since I last posted.  I've been doing the usual things - errandmaking and knitting.  I feel a bit more like the thing and have been less unhappy.  But there are still negative thoughts and some are too annoying. I wrote a letter to God and told him about how it's been since I had that weird weekend in December. I'm now getting into a crochet project.  I made some dinner tonight.  Boiled chicken and mac and cheese.  It was ok. I'm thinking my SO will be spending some time with me tomorrow but he might still be busy at work.  His job is not your typical 9-5 M-F kind so I have to catch him whenever I can. Hope you all have goodnight.

Today my husband Colin Firth found out for sure that I am pregnant. So happy about this.  I am in touch with Colin as he folds up his work and goes to be a Daddy with me. I've been able to do some chores (mostly handwashing dishes and pots and pans), fix a simple lunch (seasoned rice and pepperoni slices) and breakfast (some bacon and eggs).  I'm now hoping to finish another knitting project and in some days to come will be trying out the new sewing machine that Colin sent me.

I've been ok today.  No real discomfort. Have been able to do some desk work. Ran one errand today.  The dogs were with me.  I have a new puppy he's around 2 months old.  A little one who feels like a small baby in my arms, haha. He has been too much my focus I'm afraid.  But he is so vulnerable, as puppies are.  So I've tried to cosset him too much. But he's quite a good dog and he's actually gotten the bigger dog some amount of stress. Being too mouthy the puppy gets into the bigger dog's skin and I've had some run-ins with him also trying to and succeeding to bit me, and get into my necklaces (and I've had to keep the one I'm wearing out of his teeth!), and even my hair gets into his teething actions.  I've not gotten him a chew toy which I have to do sometime. But I've been able to keep the puppy happy enough.  He was somehow a bother when I drove to the Mall today.  I had to stop several times as he was trying to get everywhere in ...

This is my journal of my pregnancy.  My progress has been good but has had some ups and downs.  I'm in my sixth month.  I am due to deliver my baby on or about 23 March.  I hope to give my relatives and friends an update as much as I can on how I am feeling, how I'm getting on with the days of looking forward to this new life. Margot Huxley